Naughty- But- Nice

An article worth publish in both blogs.....

Ever heard of " Not good enough" syndrome? I'm not sure about you but i'm one of the victim in this new syndrome...

I just make a comment in Qing blog that i'm a girl who cannot be a seat warmer in life and i keep looking for adventure in life. Short after i make that comment i find this article from CLEO about "The No excuses guide to getting what YOU want."

Gosh! The article is exactly who i am- I need "naughty- but- nice" attitude meaning "naughty, as in living and going for what i want, and nice, as in finally getting what i want, for a change!

Millions of us currently suffer from " Not good enough" syndrome. It sounds depressing but it isn't because it's only when you realise you are sufering from negative self image that you can start changing your life. Living a naughtier life is simply about learning how to say 'YES". That 'Yes' to scary new challenges; YES to crazy adventure and YES to things you turned down. All you have to do is take a deep breath, dive in, and find out how to start make things happen for

yourself!

We all have regrets in life, whether it's turning down a job, an offer, further our higher education too far. The lists is endless and if you keep thinking about it, it can cause a huge pile-up in your life. Stop thinking about your regrets! And stop worrying what you can done differently to alter the regret! What you do is matters, what you need to do is TO DO IT!

Gosh~!

Dear those unknown readers:

I'm sorry, I have no choice but to terminate this blog.

When i saw the total of footprints registered over the weekend and the origin of the footprint,  I know i'm not feeling well at all, i almost fainted and die! Believe it or not!

I started this blog with only one intention, which is to get a forum to express my thought that i can't express out from mouth. I have learn from my big mistake- NEVER register provate thing under true name. God damn it!

I have no idea how long have any one of you start visiting this blog. I might not know who you are but with your intention to visit my blog, I believe you know me before and keen to know how am i doing lately. Apology for being reserve to my though but this is who I am. I can’t ignore my feeling of my personal thought being intruded. I do appreciate for your frequent visit, if you think you want to review your identity and having my new blog add please contact me via: laymin83@yahoo.com, or else, do take care and treat this entry as the last entry you have know ASH. 

Special note for Qing and Yi,

You both are really awesome in giving me your supports. I will sms you my new blog add and hope that it will not be a disaster like now. I need one of your help to teach me how to transfer all my past 2 years entry to the new blog add. Please let me know how can i do that.

Always love,

Ash

It's call L.O.S.T not L.O.V.E

Not that I lazy or busy till I do not have time to update my blog. My silence from my blog is just because I don’t feel safe to express my true feeling anymore. There are more unknown footprints registered here and I know I definitely do not know who they are.

Qing and Yi, I have so much things to share with you girls and I have no idea which forum to update you girls is the best. What I can do best is just to make a very general entry.

I’m really sick

I never feel so sick before both physical and emotional. I know I’m weak in physical most of the time but emotional is something I hope I can be stronger.

Most of you know I have gone through a very tough break up before. The impact is bigger than I’m expected. I thought I have move on perfectly fine after 1 year plus, not until the recent comment made by someone : “ Ash, You may appear bubbly and happy but I feel that you still feel pain deep down your heart.”  At that moment my tears just can’t stop but flowing down. I know for a fact that if there is another chance for us to be together again, I will not want to be with him. But I have no idea why I feel pain when I heard that statement. I still try to find out an answer.

Great things happen when we are least expected

I was in a very complicated r/s past few days. It is very complicated because none of us are able to have any commitment in future. We just solely have fun as a couple and leave the future with the flow.

I wasn’t expecting him to be here with me and he had given me a beautiful memorable experience. The only sadness is I have realize there are no distance can be further than someone you like is standing in front of you and you could not commit to him. It is very hard to let go someone who you think you want to be with him. However, I know I have to be firm for this time, I can’t follow my heart but my head. It is tough for me. This few days is a challenge but I know I can handle it.

New Found...........

I heard this line from a movie that “People tend to write blog especially when they are sad and they need a quiet moment alone.” This is kind of true, isn’t? Only when we are sad, we need to hide our face from others and the best way to express out the frustration/sadness is from the word format-------blogging…

I have been away for a long while, a lot of things happened around my world. Basically, I do not know how to express it out even from the word format. I’m actually still try to figure out how many things had change lately.

Unusual working life

I have been in the new role for almost 3 months, things had happen too fast for me to review how am I doing in work. I just know that I am really tired.  I’m so burn out this few days and my new project had making me to stay up really late like 4am for almost once or twice every week. Thank god that we are at the finishing line of the project.

I have too much thing on my plate and I hate the feeling of my tiredness had actually taken my enjoyment in work. I have no choice but to spill the beans to my boss during my mid year review. Both of us are very frank when we are discussing about my short and long term progress in this company. After few round of chatting and clarification, at least I know where I am heading to at the end of the day with current company. It is definitely a good thing to seek future prospect from boss. However, I still worry after the review. 

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Surprise NEWS......

I just realise a couple of my friends got married on 07.07.07.....some of them are my senior and some of them are my junior in high school. The youngest couple is as young as 22 years old. I have send a total of 5 congratulation notes to them in 1 day. While i'm typing the note, i have a very weird feeling. I am extremely happy for them seeing them happily marry to the one they love. At the same time, i have another though---" How complete our life can be when we found our soul mate?"